okay YO everybody. sorry i haven't really updated this cuz it's kinda confusing for me to decide whether i want to blog on this one or my LJ. i think i'll just stick with my LJ, but this could serve other purposes, ie an online ranting wall or something.

i'm in KL now, (as you should have already found out considering i'm gonna be MIA for two days) and i'm DAMN BORED. gosh, seriously. i don't really feel like shopping cuz i don't shop unless i really really want to/ have to which is not very often and so being presented all this HUGE opportunities to shop makes me feel really REALLY listless and drained by all the very depressing prices and the fact that even if i DID wanna buy something, it's either too mature or you need boobs for it. (not that i don't have any, just not up to the stupid designer's standard)

i've got ANOTHER dinner to attend tonight. makes me sound all big shot eh? but yeah, and i have to wear another stupid dress for it and i don't even think my shoes match. and so far, i look damn FAT FAT FAT in all the stupid pictures i took at ytd's dinner. I'M GOING ON A DIET AND I'M SERIOUS THIS TIME. somebody needs to control me.

I MUST EAT APPLES. APPLES ARE GOOD. I MUST EAT APPLES.APPLES ARE GOOD

give that to me on repeat and i swear i will think of apples and ONLY apples.

the toilets at the mandarin oriental hotel are DAMN COOL. they're just like those on pictures only you don't press the buttons cuz there aren't any buttons to press. you just twist this thing and this spray will extend out and PSSSHHH! wash your ass for you. you're given like two different sprays with two kinds of power and so you get to choose. i tried both  but the more powerful one was a BAAAAD choice. my butt still feels a little funny. but it's very effective cuz i used the tissue to dry my butt and my butt was clean!

next time suggest dryers for your butt. THEN it will be eco friendly.

alright, i think i shall stop here and adjourn to my room where there is ANOTHER toilet that sprays your ass too!

I'm gonna go get digestives and spread them with nutella :D

Sir's concert ytd, the phil winds go pop one. THEY PLAYED UMBRELLA (ain't that amazing?) totally whipped rihanna's ass man.

dinner at that funky jap bazaar place was damn funny. although my heels were peeling cuz i walked in the rain and got em wet. they were the ones pinkie and samy got me for grad tea! :( i kinda forgot all the funny parts but i know the food was freaking good.

the concert was okay i guess. i think i prefer the concerts that have a mix of the artsy fartsy pieces and pop. (like Fantasia!) speaking of which ALL OF YOU READING THIS NOW KEEP 29 NOV FREE! we're gonna have an end of year concert. NOT FANTASIA! just a concert. and the sec ones will be playing so...i dunno what to say la.

church was... kind of weird. the guys totally abadoned us, so we went to Bugis street and I WAS ENLIGHTENED! no seriously, bugis street is freaking cool.

not too good at church ytd. i dunno. guess talking's not an order.

LIKE SHIT! dawn chan finally satisfied her uncontrollable urge to kiss me

more people found out about "it" today. well i'm sorry, just so happens i have uncontrollable urges too and this is just one of them.

surprisingly, today hasn't been as bad as i had expected it to be. props making at the gallery steps was retarded because now the whole world knows that lynette can't sprinkle glitter to save her life. and no you suck at being tinkerbell too. (no, i don't "geddit")

vanessa was being quite weird today. she told beatrice and i to measure the length from our belly button to the bottom of our "V" and i just found out that i'm gonna have loads of problems giving birth. HAHAHAHA SARAH'S BOOBS ARE ONLY A BIT BIGGER THAN HER RIBCAGE! it was damn funny seriously. AND BEATRICE HAS SHORT LEGS! (to think all this while i thought she had long legs. LOSER! :D)

deep talk session after comm meeting today. (the band room is bloody dusty btw) somebody said, but doesn't it hurt even more if you keep living in denial with fake friends? and i'm thinking, oh hell yeah.

livejournal or xanga? somebody enlighten me!

funky day today. (y'know what, let's just stick with the xanga) i was supposed to go out with Tammy (who dropped a bottle of chilli on her foot. like wtf?! what's the chilli doing in her hand anyway?) and meet her at dhoby gaught mrt station. that idiot went to send julih to "keep me company" and i was like -.- dude. seriously man. and so it was kinda weird just standing there without saying stuff. but yeah. and so jessica called when we were at PS and poof she appeared at starbucks (that's so her) BUT she said she needed to meet her friend to study -.- x infinity. i think God wanted her to spend more time with us cuz He sent her friend away to meet her other friend. long, complicated story but point is, she abandoned Jess. the meaniebombeenie.

and so we had lunch at food junction and studied there. well sort of. and we met Ian who very unsuccessfully tried his surprise entry at Daiso and turned out like an idiot. WE FOUND THE INFLATABLE BOOBS! so yes, tammy got that for her friend's birthday. hahhaha, it's the best present ever seriously.

kay cont next time. gotta sleep now.

3 more days.

i have made plans. oh yes.

i seriously seriously swear i'm going to be a hell lot more disciplined for the rest of this year and next and next and next and whenever cuz i really need to buck up in my studies considering i've actually been failing at topics that are kinda no brainer. plus, i'm sleeping at like 12++ now which is not good at all because i'm falling alseep in class more often than i usually do and now i have new positions which is not good either because that means i'm getting more lethargic and tired and that's bad cuz i won't be able to learn properly and yeah.

and great, i just realised i have science to do when i'm still idling with english vocab. this is so ironically ridiculous.

but continuing with my plans, yes and not only will i try to improve myself academically, i will also run every single morning that i am free and i will train myself to eat moderately and not overeat like some bloody pig and i will become a better person physically and mentally by the end of this year i can tell you that! (i can sense admiration already)

this is really stupid. the very minute (i swear it's minute) i get out of my own problems, i'm drowned by the problems of those around me. what the hell am i supposed to do? i mean dude, i try to help by listening and trying to figure out ways to improve this relationship of yours but seriously, if you don't make the first decision and the first move nothing's ever gonna really happen. i made my move and i made my decision, that's why things turned out okay for me. you have to stand up for yourself and what you believe and trust in if not you're not going to gain the respect you feel you duly deserve.

and now because i'm talking to you and they want to know what you say about them, they're starting to get annoyed with ME just because i'm trying to help both sides by not telling both sides what the other side says and this is not easy because i'm still in the middle of rebuilding my friendship with that other side that's against you. can you not see this is taxing for me and i don't want to get hurt again so please, if you have brains and logic, make that first move and try to solve your problems.

i need time too.

3 more days.